I just got back from Verona's tribute for you at The Edge Radio.
When I got there, it's strangely familiar. I've seen Owie in church a lot and have been a fan of Joyce & Ron Titular from their NU107 days. I waited for them to give me instructions as to how I will 'volunteer' as Jonathan put it.
To my surprise, they said they'll ask me too on air about my fondest memories of you.
Oh yay! I've been blogging too much I didn't know what to say. I pretty much blabbed, there was no cohesion in my thoughts but today wasn't about me. It was really sweet of the Titulars and the Edge Radio to celebrate your life cause you were really a ROCKSTAR!
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Being in the radio station, as I waited for Verona to go on air, I'm beginning to realize that I have accepted your passing. That I'm no longer waiting for the punch-line cause you know I was. I get snapshots of your face and I can even imagine your voice saying the things the band was sharing but my heart knows they're all just memories that will be kept. I guess that's why I've not cried for 3 days now.
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It was time for them to play... The first song was Say by John Mayer. It wasn't one of your favorites but Edz is just reminded of you with this verse:
Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only . . .
For me, the song 'Say' has been my anthem for my own funeral since I attended a funeral service two years ago, I wrote that when I die or when somebody dies that I should have said everything I needed to say and then some.
I'm thankful you gave me that opportunity to say EVERYTHING. All the sorry's and thank you's.
I just felt bad that you took your time quite a while that I heard some of the things you should've told me from the band, your friends and your mom. But again I can only go back to one explanation: God is Sovereign. He knows the plans He had for you, He has for me.
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