I woke up early as Bono sang from my phone: "It's a beautiful day!!!"
I turned off the alarm and switched my ipod back on. I don't have Beautiful Day synched on it so I decided to listen to Jason Mraz instead.
'You and I' was the first track and I just started sobbing. I miss you.
I've been seriously missing you for the past week but today it just hurts. How I wished that I don't feel.
Then I remembered your mom, no matter how much I want to comfort her it will never be enough. You're not coming back ever - in this physical realm.
Iris asked why was I still crying. "Like, like... You must've loved him."
Then I remember the thought I had while watching 'The Blind Side:' Could you love a man that's gone?
For certain, as my friend, I loved you. But I told you I didn't make that decision, the last time we talked on the phone, do you remember that? And after I told you for whom the drum beats, I waited. I guess you waited too. I then trained my heart to stop.
Early in the morning a picture of a grazed knee is what I see. My cry-counter resets.
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