Why The Cry-counter?

I was supposed to be driving this guy I met at church to the airport this afternoon but due to communication line issues he went ahead by 15 minutes.


It wasn't so bad cause I get to surf the net for free at the mall beside his hotel. I stayed at one of the coffee shops for a couple of hours then decided to check out one of the bookstores. I did not plan on buying any books except probably if they have Lost and Found by Ed Stetzer. 


When I got in the Religion section C.S. Lewis' A Grief Observed caught my eye. I know it's a book that is based on his journal he made when his wife H. passed away. After reading the Foreword and Introduction, it inspired me to start writing this journal online about my ride on the grieving-process train.


I decided to call it the 'Cry-counter' cause I don't cry a lot except when watching super sad movies and worship time in church. But when Adrian died on the 11th of January I have been crying in private a lot and only a couple of times in public. I'm not being tough it's just how I am. When my maternal grandmother passed away, there was so much crying but when I felt my eyes welling up I run to our car - I was only seven.


The reason for "former porcupine" begs for a separate post. I'll collect my thoughts and then write about it.




This blog cannot be compared to the writing of Jack but is just my way to process all that is happening in my heart and head. I hope you get to learn from both my life and Adrian's life.






MC